Hey Sweet Heart,
I didn’t even remember 2014 starting but ending was good I found
you my life, 2015 New Year was also good the first wishes I told you in
Indian time and Jeddah time. But this time 2015 was not a good ending
and start is also not at all a good one. I think you can analyse how we
are in 2014 December and how we are in 2015 December. There might be any
reasons to tell me or explain me the situations you face, but analyse
yourself.
1 year passed but still the pain u r giving for me is more, this
time it’s even more and more. Last time the holidays u r with me most of
the time in every moment but this time it missed completely. As usual u
has reasons for that and I have nothing to do just to wait to see u.
Every time when I plan my career or anything I’m pulled back n thrown
into troubles again n again. This time the damage and effect is more.
It’s been more than 1month that we spoke openly about anything or
shared something. The distance that came between us is very long and I
wish this could be the first and last one and hope you will accept this
and be on this. In this period of 1month I planned so much about our
careers family etc..,
New year was not a good start for me three things put lot of effect of me.
- Immigration Problem n coming back
Even though I know that me taking risk of coming there in such a
tough situations still I took a step to reach you, check each and
everything twice and even more than it till the last moment and finally
failed to reach you. It’s still not a digesting thing for me that I’m a
failure in this thing.
Back to job continuing here but still unhappy just continuing here
to clear my loans even anyone may talk about me or make jokes on me I’m
just concerned about my family(Amma, Dad, u & Nikhil) n making them
happy. Most of the family members only criticised me for going and they
expressed all when I came back Amma didn’t tell me all but I can
understand some.
I didn’t feel good of even going home after coming back from Delhi I
was fully depressed and I don’t even understand who to share this
seriously I have some friends around me saying don’t worry be cool n all
but I’m unable to be so, when mom called me also I said I can’t come
home. They came to Hyderabad to see me and said everything will be fine
gave all the support. But what I felt is I didn’t keep up there hope
what Amma, Dad, Nikhil and u kept on me. May be I must have done
something more n think more to get situations right.
Past is gone but at least in the present case need to sort of each
and everything and set them right. When I heard that u too said to stop
the plans of coming abroad, I felt like why she is saying that if I come
there only we can meet and live up our dreams. One minute my heart beat
stopped, mind got blank. I’m still in that conflict why you said that
this is the thing I need clarification on.
In the period of 1 year you gave a long gap where my eyes are
completely waiting to see you and ears are waiting to hear laddu I love
u.
Past is past its finished. Don’t create so long gap between us saying reasons for everything.
- My friend girlfriend left him after 7 years of their love
One of my childhood friend and my present roommate his love got an
end card, sad finishing. He is a cool guy feels if one is gone I can get
some other he did that also in his career till now. When his
girlfriend’s feel to move on he too moved on with someone or took so
easily. He even used to tell me that to be like him or don’t get too
involved in anything if you stick it would affect you in some other way
etc.., but I never use to listen to him.
But when his girlfriend said her marriage is fixed he said I just
loved her because she promised me that she will marry me and will be
with me till the end but she didn’t at least she didn’t even expressed
in her home about him. He even said I will come n talk in your home
about us and make your dad convince for our marriage. Still she fixed on
leaving him and that’s it it’s a happy bye bye ending.
The thing made me worried about this is when you said to mama about
us she was happy for you and I felt that in her voice, tension was also
there but if someone loves beyond the limits then it will be magic. I
think she recognised that, but in no time the word spread to Baba and
Jojo the reaction was not positive. You got a proposal in Jeddah but it
didn’t work or postponed I don’t know, still I’m tensed. In home they
will not stop right to make your marriage they will keep on checking in
some way about you even though you are very strong on your decision
about me or about marriage.
I just decided one thing in the second point if marriage is to be
happened it should be with you otherwise no that’s it. I don’t know how
seriously I took this decision but I’m standing on it because the impact
you made on me is I can’t express in words. Whatever is next it’s up
to u.
- My another friend mom’s death
My old roommate and childhood friend, I know their family and the
struggle it’s same as our family only. The effect was so severe on me it
made me to think what happens if I come across it. I should not think
like that but I saw some other friends or their parents dead but this
time it really affected me more and made me to take care of my mom and
dad more. That’s the main reason I took in charge of some loans of
giving them so pressure off will settle Nikhil soon and release Dad’s
pressure. Dad was worried about both of our careers so need to settle
Nikhil first and set some good Job in Jeddah where I can handle both of
our families well.
All these happened in 1st week of Jan 2016 only which affected me a
lot. And they created a very big impact on me. Need to react on this
and I don’t know how my plan goes but this time I’m not going according
to a full length plan it’s my targets by any way I have to reach them.
Love me again………………….
Love me again………………….
Love me again………………….
Love me again………………….
Love me again………………….
Love me again………………….
Love me again………………….
Love me again………………….
true message from Indian Nobel man
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